To the World's Greatest Mom

I wish to tell you how much I love you mom! Although I cant remember the last time I told you this, I know action speaks louder than words... And hopefully Ill have the courage to tell you how I feel. For now, I hope this works...

During my highschool days, I must admit, I envied my classmates' moms because they were all supportive to them. They are soft spoken, womanly and always gives us a sweet smile. At that moment, I always wanted my mom to be like them. Like a typical mom... But now that I have grown up I realized I do not want a typical mom... I love you the way you are, youre more than ordinary..

You washed jeepney when we were young, you do other's laundry, you sell fish, you owned sari-sari store, you fix the faucet when its broken, electric wires when not working... and you helped dad to raise us up. You struggled to have all of us finish our college. I thought that would be the end of my list of how wonderful you are.. but not...

I broke the biggest news last year... I called you up when I learned that I was HIV Positive... I heard you broke into tears... but I was steadfast. I dont want you to hear the sound of my shattering soul. Not because I was HIV positive but because.... I heard you cry... and this time because of me. You didnt blamed me. Instead, you welcome me with youre loving arm...

That is the day when I died because of the news, and you made me live again through your love.

Now, you wake me up to take my medicines. You cook healthy foods for me... even at times you do not feel well. You made me feel your love more than ever. Overwhelming.

Now it is payback time. We are all successful professionals and we, will ensure that you will have a better life than what we used to have. I will try to give you everything that you want. I will dress you up with fine clothes, with perfumes and jewels. All because you deserve that. I OWE EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE NOW BECAUSE OF YOU. I owe you more than my life's worth. I love you right after GOD.

The word LOVE will not be enough to define how I am thankful to GOD because I have you. You are especially crafted for us. You are not the typical mom... you are unique. YOU ARE YOU.

You are the BEST.

Symptoms and Hubs

Funny that I created this blog for my advocacy but I think I missed something... to write about the symptoms and the testing/treatment hubs here in the Philippines. If not for some of my followers messaging me, I wouldnt have an idea to post that, maybe because I focused on writing how a Pozzie (HIV positive) can live a normal life like I do. Yan kasi ang nakatulong sa akin nung newly diagnosed ako. I should have blogged this earlier but here it goes!!!

Details c/o @iamhivpositivem


METRO MANILA

Philippine General Hospital (PGH)
Taft Avenue, Ermita, Manila
Dr. Jodor Lim & Ms. Dominga C. Gomez, HACT, SAGIP / PGH
Tel: (+632) 554-8400 local 3238

Research Institute for Tropical Medicine (RITM)
Filinvest Corporate City, Alabang, Muntinlupa City
Dr. Rossana A. Ditangco, Head, HIV Research Unit
Tel: (+632) 807-2628 or 38 local 801/208

San Lazaro Hospital (SLH)
Quiricada St., Sta. Cruz, Manila
Dr. Rosario Jessica Tactacan-Abrenica, Medical Specialist II /
HACT Leader and Head, HIV/AIDS Pavilion
Tel: (+632) 309-9528 to 29; 740-8301 loc 6000


LUZON

Baguio General Hospital and Medical Center (BGHMC)
Baguio City
Dr. Maria Lorena L. Santos, HACT Leader / Medical Officer II

Bicol Regional Training & Teaching Hospital
Legaspi City, Albay
Dr. Rogelio G. Rivera, Chief of Hospital III
Tel: (+6352) 483-0016 ; 483-0086; 483-0017

Cagayan Valley Medical Center
Tuguegarao City, Cagayan Valley

Ilocos Training and Regional Medical Center (ITRMC)
San Fernando, La Union
Dr. Jeisela B. Gaerlan, Medical Specialist II / HACT Leader
Tel: (+6372) 700-3808

Jose B. Lingad Memorial Medical Center
San Fernando, Pampanga

VISAYAS

Corazon Locsin Montelibano Memorial Regional Hospital
Lacson St., Bacolod City, Negros Occidental
Dr. Candido Alam, HACT Leader / Medical Specialist
Tel: (+6334) 435-1591 ; 433-2697

Vicente Sotto, Sr. Memorial Medical Center
B. Rodriguez St., Cebu City 6000
Dr. Maria Consuelo B. Malaga, HACT Leader
Tel: (+6332) 253-7564

Western Visayas Medical Center
Q. Abeto St., Mandurriao, 5000 Iloilo City
Dr. Ray Celis, HACT Leader / Medical Specialist III
Tel: (+6333) 321-2841 to 50

MINDANAO

Davao Medical Center
J.P. Laurel St., Bajada, 8000 Davao City
Dr. Alicia Layug, HACT Leader
Tel: (+6381) 227-2731

Zamboanga City Medical Center
Evangelista St., 7000 Zamboanga City
Dr. Jejunee Rivera, HACT Leader / Medical Officer III
Tel: (+6362) 991-0573

Or visit/inquire at your nearest Social Hygiene Clinics (Special STI Clinics) and City or Municipal Health Offices at the local level. Here are a few in Metro Manila:

Manila Social Hygiene Clinic
2nd Floor, 208 Quiricada Street, Sta. Cruz, Manila
Dr. Diana Mendoza or Malou Tan, RN
Tel: (+632) 711-6942

Caloocan Social Hygiene Clinic
Caloocan Health Department, A. Mabini St., Caloocan
Dr. Zenaida Calupaz
Tel: (+632) 288-8811 local 2281

Makati Social Hygiene Clinic
7th Floor, Makati City Hall, J.P. Rizal St., Makati City
Dr. Calixto Salud or Teresita Pagcaliwagan, RN
Tel: (+632) 870-1615

Mandaluyong Social Hygiene Clinic
Lerma corner Vicencio Sts., Old Zaniga, Mandaluyong
Dr. Yolanda Tuaño
Tel: (+632) 546-7799 ; 211-5336

Pasay Social Hygiene Clinic
Rm. 106, Pasay City Hall, F.B. Harrison St., Pasay City
Dr. Loretta Garcia
Tel: (+632) 551-4180

Pasig Social Hygiene Clinic
5th Floor, Pasig City Hall, Caruncho Ave., Pasig City
Dr. Rocylene Roque or Dennis Espina
Tel: (+632) 640-0111 ; 642-7754; 640-2058

Quezon City Social Hygiene Clinic – Batasan
Batasan Hills, Quezon City
Dr. Dottie Mercado
Tel: (+63) 0905 357-6353

Quezon City Social Hygiene Clinic – P. Bernardo
Cubao, Quezon City
Dr. Suzette Encisa
Tel: (+63) 0916 478-1607

Quezon City Social Hygiene Clinic – Project 7
Project 7, Quezon City
Dr. Monina Santos
Tel: (+63) 0918 618-4133


For the Symptoms:

Many people do not develop symptoms after they first get infected with HIV. Others have a history of a flu-like illness within several days to weeks after exposure to the virus. Early HIV symptoms also include fever, headache, tiredness, and enlarged lymph nodes in the neck. These symptoms usually disappear on their own within a few weeks. After that, the person feels normal and has no symptoms. This asymptomatic phase often lasts for years.

The progression of disease varies widely among individuals. This state may last from a few months to more than 10 years.

• During this period, the virus continues to multiply actively and infects and kills the cells of the immune system.
• The virus destroys the cells that are the primary infection fighters, a type of white blood cell called CD4 cells.
• Even though the person has no symptoms, he or she is contagious and can pass HIV to others through the routes listed above.

AIDS is the later stage of HIV infection, when the body begins losing its ability to fight infections. Once the CD4 cell count falls low enough, an infected person is said to have AIDS. Sometimes, the diagnosis of AIDS is made because the person has unusual infections or cancers that show how weak the immune system is.

• The infections that happen with AIDS are called opportunistic infections because they take advantage of the opportunity to infect a weakened host. The infections include (but are not limited to)
• pneumonia caused by Pneumocystis, which causes wheezing;
• brain infection with toxoplasmosis which can cause trouble thinking or symptoms that mimic a stroke;
• widespread infection with a bacteria called MAC (mycobacterium avium complex) which can cause fever and weight loss;
• yeast infection of the swallowing tube (esophagus) which causes pain with swallowing;
• widespread diseases with certain fungi like histoplasmosis, which can cause fever, cough, anemia, and other problems.
• A weakened immune system can also lead to other unusual conditions:
• lymphoma in (a form of cancer of the lymphoid tissue) in the brain, which can cause fever and trouble thinking;
• a cancer of the soft tissues called Kaposi's sarcoma, which causes brown, reddish, or purple spots that develop on the skin or in the mouth.

As for me, I did not have any of the symptoms. I actually got curious of my HIV status that is why I had myself tested. I think we can have a rule of thumb here:

If you exposed yourself even once to any rosk that can make you catch this little monsters, you owe yourself a treat... that is... having yourself test.

Yours,

Potchini2

Numbers

On the way home, I really thought of updating this blog and I already have a title in my mind... NUMBERS. Lets start?

642 - this is my new CD4 Count. I should be sad but I think Im not. Why? nagsimula ako ng 292 agad ang CD4 ko, so I need to take meds. After that, nagpacd4 ako uli it went to 872 so it was a very big leap! Everyone is actually surprised! I was hoping to maintain that number but unfortunately it went down to 642. Nothing to be sad of actually because this is a really good number. Considering that a normal person's CD4 should be ranging from 500-1000. (I am not sure about that 1500). So makaabot ka lang talaga ng 500 normal na. I was kinda expecting na mejo mababa na din kasi depende din daw un sa kundisyon ng katawan mo. E the night before sobra ako nagpuyat dahil akpapanood ng isang documentary... 12:30 na ata ako nakatulog tapos gising ng 6! haha! tapos ang lakas pa ng ulan kanina. Pasaway ko di ba? but I know that in my normal condition it should be higher.

10 - This is the cut off time (10:00AM) that RITM is accepting pozzies for CD4 count. Sa layo ko 3 hours aabutin byahe ko and while on my way I was losing hope na kasi 7:30 ako nakaalis sa sobrang lakas ng ulan. So ayun uli, sabi ko Lord, ikaw na po bahala ah. Nung andun na ako sa ayala may shuttle dun, usually maghihintay ka talaga ng 15-20 minutes bago umalis yun minsan nga more than 30 minutes sa dalang ng sumasakay. e 9:40 na nung makarating ako dun sa sakayan. e tatakbo pa ang sasakyan, maglalakad pa ako. so wala na. pero nung pagdating ko sa sakayan sakto aalis na yung shuttle humabol lang ako. so pagkasakay ko, alis kaagad. Alam nyo, napangiti na lang ako tapos napabulong ako... IKAW talaga (referring to God). So ayun I came 3-4 minutes ahead of time. Photo finish nga daw ako sabi ni ate Ellen (nurse).

Ang dami pinagawa sa akin, actually nalungkot ako kanina nung kinuhaan ako ng dugo, iba na kasi yung way. hindi na sya parang dati na papasukan ka ng karayom tapos hihilahin yung plastic para lumabas ang dugo...kanina napansin ko, ipinasok yung karayom tapos parang butas sa dulo, lalagyanan ng tube, tapos... ipapasok yung tube... sisirit yung dugo papasok sa tube... habang sumisirit sya nalulungkot ako... nagseself pitty... bakit ko pinagdadaanan ito...

ANYWAYS... tuloy natin ang numbers...

12 - eto yung number kanina na kasabay ko nagpuntan dun sa oras ko. Madami na ito. Imagine pagdating ko dun 12 agad kami sa isang room tapos may mga bago pa. narinig ko na naman yung linyang "Welcome to the School!" School kasi ang RITM para mejo easy sya pakinggan.

6 - haha! matatawa kayo dito. malapit na talaga ako maniwala na may hitsura nga ako. Habang naglalakad sa kalsada, 5 ang napalingon ko! (head turner?) haha. oo tatlo na yung tumitingin sa akin na nakita ko (well hindi ko alam kung meron man na hindi ko napansin). yung isa nga e natakot ako kasi sobra makatitig dahil magkasalubungan naman kami. yung isa naman pacute, yung isa matanda, yung isa sa escalator, yung isa naman lumapit sa akin at kinausap pa ako... since wala ako magawa e kinausap ko na rin. mukha sya straight actually. nagpunta lang daw sya dun sa pwesto ko kasi nakita nya ako dun. inutusan ang daw sya ng asawa nya na bumili gatas ng anak nya. ayun nagshare sya masaya daw sya nakakakita tao katulad ko kasi daw parang nagpapaksaya lang ako samantalang sya nakakulong kasi di nya mahal girl tapos yun nga mukhang nagkakagusto na sya sa lalaki. alam kong di sya nagpapakaastig lang. sa loob loob ko, di mo talaga mapapaliwanag utak ng tao... ako naman isa na lang gusto ko sana.. ang magkaanak, samantalang itong isa, gusto nya sa shoes ko... tapos yun minamanyak ako! haha! well hindi na ako magkukuwento dun...

Sabihin nyo weird kasi nilagay ko 6 pero 5 yung sinabi ko na lumingon? kasi on my way binilang ko na sabi ko 5 tapos habang binibilang ko may ngumiti sa akin. papasok sana sya sa isang malaking supermarket kaso nagiba agad ng way nung madaan sa akin... huminto sa isang lugar... pumwesto sa may malapit sa akin tapos nagsmile. hayayyay! yun na lang kukuwento ko!

Sasabihin ng iba nagbubuhat ako bangko, pero totoo lahat yan. ewan ko ba di naman ako pogi, may hitsura lang hehe. O ayan mga pozzie ha, hindi porke pozzie tayo mukha na tayo sakitin. Dami kaya pozzie na mukha pa rin fresh kaya tuloy lang buhay natin ha!


TUKSO LAYUAN MO AKO!!!


Yours,

Potchini2

Philhealth requirements

There is currently a national initiative to help those HIV Positives to cope up with the medical expenses through Philhealth. Thank you. It is really useful for us but I believe there are more improvements that could be made especially when trying to avail your benefits.

The current procedure is that we need to submit MDR (Member Data Record) and CF1 form with the signature of your employer. Worst is, you have to do this everytime you need a refill. That means every quarter or 4 times a year. What kind of excuses we need to always tell our employers? These requirements are usually requested whenever a person will be admitted in the hospital. If our employers suspected that we are in quarterly basis, request for these documentations, would it raise their eyebrows and ask if we are still fit to work? If none in our annual medical exam shows finding, would it be more questionnable in their part why they need to provide us these documents on a quarterly basis. I asked what is the purpose of this documentation, they only wanted to make sure thatcontributions are made. Why cant we submit our payslip instead? Or any other proof that we make our contributions on a regular basis.

Come on Philhealth peeps, we appreciate your efforts for us, but please do not make a quicksand and let us pozzies be sucked into it. Please do not make it harder for us. We hope that you understand our situation. Sometimes it is not living with this disease that is harder, but keeping it as a secret. We really hope you can review your policies because it is getting harder for us. I hope this will not be one of the reason why some of us will stop taking medications or will hinder some people to get tested because of the hassles.

It is not new to us that in our society, there is still stigma on this disease and most (if not all) pozzies do not want to reveal their identity in their workplace. Besides, we cannot afford to leave our work. We became a burden to our family with the news, and we do not want to make it even harder for them by being a bum. Even though we have this little monsters, we still have dreams for our family.

Please support us.

Yours,

Potchini2

An open letter to a blogger

I was browsing over the net and I came up reading a blog related to what I have right now. His blog is actually one of the blogs that I follow which is named "the positive life" specifically his post titled "Tired Enough". (It was coincidental that we titled our blogs the same way, though he came first). It broke my heart. I was about to reply to his post but I thought I will be out of space and having this in my post could also help my viewers. I really hope so... and so I will make an open letter to you Mr. Positive.

My eyes almost popped when I saw that you stopped taking ARVs for three days. I was shattered. I know you are depressed because of your situation but I cant help myself to be disappointed for a while. The reason is that people have prayed a lot for these treatments to come for years, we are actually in a much better era than the time that this little monsters in us were discovered. Also, you may not be familiar with the risks of resistance to drugs by skipping doses. You are not only taking the risk of resistance to that drug but also, to the LINE of drug that you are taking. Meaning, resistance to one drug could equate to resistance to other ARVs. I am sympathetic because I learned to love my drug now, hoping that I will not change my medicines AGAIN. Yes you read it right... AGAIN. This is because I have changed my medicine twice already and that this is my third option. The reason is because I was allergic to the first two sets of medicine they wanted me to take.

I was confined due to my allergies. I was hospitalized. I was secluded from my family because RITM is far from my place. Being away for 4 days knowing that I am crushing their hearts even if I cant see them is more heart breaking than the rashes that I see in my skin. Mind you, it was just a normal rash but it was thought to have a Steven Johnson Syndrome.

Please give me the benefit of the doubt to tell you that I KNOW WHAT YOU FEEL. I think I know the reason why you stopped taking ARVs. I also felt that way although I opted to think about it first before actually doing it. If death will come, it will come... besides, why would I want to live a long life when it will be full of pretentions, judges and loneliness. Am I right? I am still in a battle but I can tell you to hold on. Look at your family, the people you love, the people that makes you smile, the people who makes you smile. They are the reason to live. It is not YOU alone... it is YOU and THEM. You are given the chance to know who to give your love with, and if your love is not reciprocated even by a simple respect... they dont deserve you. POUR your love to those people who makes you smile, those people who makes you want to live atleast another day... they deserve you.

There was a time, when I was depressed, alone in my room... it was very dark. I called HIM. I asked him questions. My mouth moves but no words can be heard as I dont want anyone to hear me. I cried. And you know what, the same time I felt HIS presence. I cannot describe it but tears started to fall from my eyes and I am pretty sure HE heard me. I did not have an actual response from HIM but I know we talked. I felt HIM. I felt his presence. And that time... that very moment. I felt very light and easy... away from the judgemental world that we have. We shouldnt be bothered anymore of what others may say, but I assure you. GOD is accepting us. I believe there is a reason for this disease. Let this be a reason why you would like to savor each day, each sunlight, each raindrop. Yes we will all vanish from this world, but not all is given the chance to make you realize that you want to savor every moment. If you cant lean on anything... lean on HIM.

I will give you a little story, yesterday I was rushing to the office. I cant be late. Ive done everything I could but it seems that time is against me. All of a sudden something came in to my mind. That whatever effort that I will make, if I will be late... I will be late. And then I whispered, "God, you know my effort for this day, I lift it up to you".Surprisingly, as I entered MRT turnstile, the train is already coming and I was in it without waiting which is unusual. After I came to my station, I was able to pick a shuttle directly to my office, in short... I was 3 minutes ahead of time... and I knew all the time He was helping me...

Why did I shared that? The reason is I want to tell you HE knows what WE are going through. There are points where we want to do things our way... Things to fall to what we plan it to be.. but when thing goes in a different direction, trust GOD as HE has a plan on us. He sees our grievances, our struggles. Cant we compensate him a little? Even by a little "fight for the life HE gave us?"

Also, I am aware of the fact that the society is prejudicial against us... the same reason why I do not disclose my identity. But bear in mind that they do not have a right to discriminate or judge us as we are all sinners. We may be unlucky to catch this disease but most have done the same mistake we once did, and most likely... WORST.

Surround yourself with things that makes you happy... CHEER UP! We wouldnt call blogs "POSITIVELIFE" for nothing right?

I will listen.

Your new blog friend,

Potchini2

Gerascophobia

Before you raise your eyebrows on a very unpopular phobia, let me define this to you first:

Gerascophobia is based on anxieties of being left alone, without resources and incapable of caring for oneself. Sufferers may be young and healthy.


I think this all started with a dream. Years ago, I remember having a dream wherein nobody sees me. Everything seems to be normal, everything seems to do their usual routines... except that I am invinsible. I am not sure what I am in my dream but what I am sure of is nobody notices me. Simple dream right? But I woke up with a fast beating heart and a very thankful soul that it was just a dream. After that, I believe... I had issues of being lonely... not alone.

I can be alone... at my option. I wanted space for most of the time. I dwell in my room. I do my things the way I wanted to do it, but I dont want to realize, hey, I am alone here.

My first issue when I tested positive is not that I will die early, but, what if I grow old and Ill be alone? Wag naman sana magagalit sa akin si Lord (Lord love you!) pero I think He knows that I wanted to GO first before my parents, pero syempre not in an immediate future. I think the reason is quite selfish. They already have siblings, they will be taken cared of... pero ako... I cant have siblings, I cant have my own family. Well scientifically I can, but ofcourse I need to disclose my status to the one that I will decide to be with for my entire life. BUT, for now, I have no plans of disclosing to anyone else... not even if it means Ill be growing old single. SAKLAP. The reason? I want to protect my family. Ayaw ko madamay sila sa bunga ng pagkakamali ko.

I hope I could combat this fear. Imagine ,my greatest fear is starting to come as day passes by. I know GOD has plans for me. Kung mapapansin nyo may pagka pessimist ako no? Minsan nga naiisip ko mas nakakabuti ba para sa akin ang blog na ito para may outlet ako o mas nagiging emo lang ata ako. haha.


Minsan nakakagulat, dun sa account ko sa planet romeo (hiv_potchi), imbis na ako yung makatulong... ako pa natutulungan. I almost had teary eyes reading some of the messages na natatanggap ko. Ito yung tatlo isha share ko...

"GOD is ABLE. i know there's no cure yet. Be positive! :) kaya mo yan. "
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You will never grow old alone trust me.
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"i read all of your blogs. and i cant hold by breath and imagine. how courageous you are. there are some people there who cant accept the truth behind bars.

Honestly, your blogs would help others specially to non believers and promiscuous peeps around.

Even 1% contribution of awareness to the society would mean a lot.

Kudos to you Potchi!"


Sana naman may natutulungan talaga itong blog na ito. Im not sure if may mga nagbabasa ba talaga pero sana kahit papaano nakakatulong ako. Sa mga nagmessage sa akin, salamat talaga ha!

Yours,

June

And so it is June? e anu naman? haha! I just decided to create my first write up.

What do I expect sa June? ULAN! whew! Cant imagine myself going to work and hurdle through the waves of edsa and the annoying traffic, not to mention being "basang sisiw". haha. wag no sabihin na hindi nyo naranasan yan. Also, I have to prepare for my health... I havent been sick in the longest years but I wont take chance. Haha. Im contemplating on having regular vitamins on top of my ARVs. Ayaw ko naman bugbugin si Liver ko. pero sabi naman nila doc pwede naman daw ako mag vitamins.

Also for June, I will be going back to my treatment hub (see you there but dont expect na maguusap tayo) for my annual exams. lahat yata ichecheck uli. And darn, for some reasons it gives me creeps kasi i dont want to know my CD4 count is goping down. I had a huge leap after I took my medicines and I dont want to change meds kasi na trauma na ata ako. yung first set of regimen ko is not very friendly for me. So guys kung may nagbabasa naman neto hingi ako ng prayers ha...

In my previous post, I mentioned that I created a PR Account to set as a reminder to people who are still promiscuous. And mind you... may basher sa account ko! Ayoko na lang ilagay ang username nya pero this is the flow of conversation:

Him: Taga Marikina ka ba talaga?
Hiv_potchi: Nope. Ginamit ko lang yan location na yan. bakit takot ka?
Him: Oo baka marami ka na nakasex dito e.
Hiv_potchi: Ah ganun ba, dont worry kasi tingin ko naman di kita mahahawaan. Una konti lang naman nakasex ko, pangalawa sure ako na hindi tau nagsex kasi hindi kita papatulan. Pangatlo, yung mga nakasex ko malamang may taste din sila. so for sure wala ka sa network ko.

 Haha. Hindi verbatim yang conversation na yan pero yan yung thought. di ko kasi nasave yung conversation history. Anyways kasalanan ko rin kasi pinatulan ko pa. Pero as blunt as I am, hindi ko talaga papatulan yung taong yun. haha. nakakatawa kasi siguro yun na lang outlet nya at akala nya porke may HIV ako e nawala na ang confidence ko sa sarili ko. Well, I will never let anybody stoop at me.

I have well established my confidence, I am a professional. I know I have looks and I know what my worth is. I am doing this as an advocacy and not a license to belittle my personality from a random unsubstantiated guy.

Having this virus doesnt make me lesser of a person than any normal being alive. We are all in equal footing. Bash me and you only gave me a reason to crush your spirits. hehe tapang no.

I just want to prove something. HIV is a disease. Its in the community. Its a natural thing being in existence for more than 30 years. Its not a sinner's curse. We are all sinners afterall... who are we to judge somebody else?

MABUHAY! HAHAHA


Yours,

Potchini2



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Pahabol, nagmessage pa sya after ko ipost tong blog ko.

dimas lalong d nman ako papatol sa nabubiulok na katawan tulad mo pati nga utak mo bulok na bulok na..at d ako papatol sa me HIV tulad mo na d maip[akita ang muka siguradong bulok na bulok na muka mo........kung pangit ako mas pangit ka .......kaya iyan ang binigay asa iyo ni lord di ako nag tataka ...........ang mga bulok na tulad mo bulok din ang pinapatulan........ewwwwwweeeee HIV positive......iyan ang bagay sa iyo..........MAMATAY KANG MAAAGNAS..........BUTI NGA SA IYO NAGKA HIV KA ANG FULL BLOWN POSITIVE.........


Kilabutan ka ginagamit mo pa pangalan ni Lord for this senseless statement. ilalagay ko pa rin ba ang username nito? makakatulong ba yun? HMMM....

Dont make me wish for the opposite of what youve told me. Ayoko iwish na sana hindi ka mamatay. hahaha