How are you? How am I?

Whew! Almost a year since I last updated this blog. I am not even sure if there are people who still reads this but the statistics says yes! I hope that my blogs are timeless, that even when I am not updating this as much as I wanted, my readers can still relate to my story.... and hopefully they can learn!

How time flies so fast!.. and everyday I thank God for the wonderful blessing of good health and safety for me, my family and my loved ones. There are actually a lot of things that I want to share to you and a single blog cant handle it all. So yes! Hopefully I can visit this once in a while and give you things about what happened/happening to me. So let me start by.... hmmmmm.....

Friends

When I was diagnosed last 2011, I was very depressed and desperate that I really wanted to talk to someone. I can vividly remember the feelings that I had way back then. The feeling of being alone and different... like an alien. That you are nothing like anybody else, that I am levels lower than anybody, and that time I knew I needed someone to talk to openly... that is... a warm body and not in chats. I have no choice since I dont want to open my identity in public, so I decided surfing the net and was able to get 3 email ads from a blog. They were Pinoy, Trixie and Bruce (their psodonyms). I tried messaging them and fortunately they responded to my chat. Eventually,we lost our communication and that made me see the Twitter world for Poz. (follow me)

I went to RITM one time for a check up when Bruce messaged me that Pinoy and Trixie were also there, it was like in movies... my phone is almost dead with few percentage of battery left that I wasnt able to describe my self to Bruce so he can tell Pinoy and Trixie to look for me. I was kinda frustrated as my phone finally turned off. And so I breathed deeply and said to myself... oh well.... And while waiting for my queue to get my blood extracted, I noticed two people which I found familiar (yes! me and Pinoy once exchanged pic). I reluctantly approached them and said... "excuse me.. are you Pinoy?". (I was reluctant as I speak to nobody when I am there... I dont want attention as I dont want to be recognized) He said, "Yes.... Potchi is that you?". After a year of no communication, we finally met unexpectedly. It was meant! I am happy that I found these guys. And a year later upto now, we are still friends and we accompany each other whenever we go there! Happy right! But...

There are just friends that are close to you who you never wanted to see... especially in RITM! If internet can only feel the conviction as I am typing right now! YES READERS! I met familiar faces there and fortunately I was able to hide and they did not noticed me. That I have to rush back home even it took me 3 hours to get there. I dont want to elaborate further. They may be reading this and give them verification that I really was the one whom they may have seen! LOL! My advice... to wear a mask of Superman whenever you go to your treatment hub! LOL. But seriously, if you really are trying hard not to be identified, bring a surgery mask (also for protection), a cap, and sunglasses. So what if you look weird, they will never recognize you anyway! In this times where the statistics are really rising up for newly diagnosed HIV positives, it is not impossible that a friend, colleague or neighbor is in the same treatment hub with where you are. It wont hurt to add additional safeguard to your identity right?

I will be updating this soon with some of the latest things that you may find interesting. But I have to pause for now as I am getting really sleepy.

How am I? I am doing pretty good!

How are you?

Yours,

Potchini2

I was gone for a while... SORRY

I have been receiving several messages that they are always visiting my site and they are waiting for my updates... well I am still surprised that the number of views on this site still grows despite my absence for more than a month. Im sorry guys Ive been very busy lately.

I was not expecting this kind of schedule that I almost forgot Im HIV positive. yeah right! Dont get me wrong, I still take my ARVs on time but the schedule that I have right now makes me preoccupied and move one step at a time, but I realized that I still have a responsibility to the reading community and I should commit updating this once in a while most especially now... that the numbers of new HIV positive in the Philippines is still growing.

Again, I am happy and sad with the news. Happy in the sense that there is something in my mind that tells me that the number of positive rises here in our country is not solely due to promiscuous peeps that we have, a larger portion of it comes from awareness and the drive from different sectors to let people know that HIV is not a fictitious disease and it is really around our community. HIV folks will be aware of their status, become more responsible and most of all, will be able to take care of themselves. Sad because every positive result will bring another heartache to a soul. If I will pattern my self to others, the news made me astrayed on my own path. I really do not know here to go then. Well I am not saying that I am in the position right now where everything is already planned and I know what to do in every HIV related matter that I will face... but I believe I am in a better shoe than before. Given the support of my fellow pozzies from Twitter and the strengthened relationship with family and God.

I will take this chance to update my readers that another young soul with HIV was called by our great creator to join HIM in his kingdom. I should be happy for him because he is in a place where there is no HIV, no pain and no discrimation. But I was shocked with the news that the first thing that came into my mind was the pain of her mother. I love my mom so much that I dont want her to feel so much pain, moreso, with my lost. But I dont know if I will pray to God if I wanted to go first before her. Ill die my second death... Yeah! I considered my self reincarnated for I once died with the HIV news and now I am all alive living my life to the fullest with better perspective. But I dont want to anticipate negative things for now for God is so wise that he knows what to do in matters that man cannot comprehend.

Whew. How did I ever shifted to that topic! Anyways, I hope that those newly enrolled pozzies will be able to cope up well and continue with their lives so we could enjoy the gift of live our creator had given us. And I also hope that I can update this blog more frequently!

Yours,
Potchini2