I have been receiving several messages that they are always visiting my site and they are waiting for my updates... well I am still surprised that the number of views on this site still grows despite my absence for more than a month. Im sorry guys Ive been very busy lately.
I was not expecting this kind of schedule that I almost forgot Im HIV positive. yeah right! Dont get me wrong, I still take my ARVs on time but the schedule that I have right now makes me preoccupied and move one step at a time, but I realized that I still have a responsibility to the reading community and I should commit updating this once in a while most especially now... that the numbers of new HIV positive in the Philippines is still growing.
Again, I am happy and sad with the news. Happy in the sense that there is something in my mind that tells me that the number of positive rises here in our country is not solely due to promiscuous peeps that we have, a larger portion of it comes from awareness and the drive from different sectors to let people know that HIV is not a fictitious disease and it is really around our community. HIV folks will be aware of their status, become more responsible and most of all, will be able to take care of themselves. Sad because every positive result will bring another heartache to a soul. If I will pattern my self to others, the news made me astrayed on my own path. I really do not know here to go then. Well I am not saying that I am in the position right now where everything is already planned and I know what to do in every HIV related matter that I will face... but I believe I am in a better shoe than before. Given the support of my fellow pozzies from Twitter and the strengthened relationship with family and God.
I will take this chance to update my readers that another young soul with HIV was called by our great creator to join HIM in his kingdom. I should be happy for him because he is in a place where there is no HIV, no pain and no discrimation. But I was shocked with the news that the first thing that came into my mind was the pain of her mother. I love my mom so much that I dont want her to feel so much pain, moreso, with my lost. But I dont know if I will pray to God if I wanted to go first before her. Ill die my second death... Yeah! I considered my self reincarnated for I once died with the HIV news and now I am all alive living my life to the fullest with better perspective. But I dont want to anticipate negative things for now for God is so wise that he knows what to do in matters that man cannot comprehend.
Whew. How did I ever shifted to that topic! Anyways, I hope that those newly enrolled pozzies will be able to cope up well and continue with their lives so we could enjoy the gift of live our creator had given us. And I also hope that I can update this blog more frequently!
Yours,
Potchini2
